It has come to my attention that I’m terrible at keeping a schedule. It’s been a bit hectic lately. I’ve been more focused on editing a certain story than writing blog posts and doing much of anything else. This will be the first time that I’ll say that I have a one track mind when I have the energy to work on a story.
However, I will say that I’ve gotten so much done over the last three days. I’ve edited a total of six chapters and it feels good to get things done. Here’s hoping that the momentum stays consistent. Mostly I think it has to do with the fact that I’m finding editing enjoyable again. Before, it felt a bit like a chore because I needed to get it done and I’d force myself to sit down and do it. Those times weren’t too productive and only got about ten pages done. To me, that wasn’t a lot because I knew I could do better.
Now, I feel like since I didn’t feel like I was always productive, I’m trying to make up for that ‘lost’ time. Whether that’s a good or bad thing, I haven’t decided yet. All I know is that I want to keep editing and rewriting.
Writing is very much about discovery and I’ve discovered a few things about myself these last few months. I’ve been asking myself if this is really what I want to do and honestly, I don’t see myself doing anything else. I would regret it if I stopped writing and stopped trying. So, I’ll keep writing because, even though I say I don’t like it and it’s frustrating, I don’t want to do anything else in my free time.