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Doubts and Optimism

#Pitmad came and went without any success. I prepared over ten different pitches for Clan of Ash but they didn’t work. With this, I can’t help but think that maybe I should put Clan of Ash away for awhile and try to get it published later.

I know there’s self-publishing out there but I don’t want to do that for this book. I have another, Crimson Queen, that I would self-publish but not Clan of Ash. Maybe I’m being stubborn but I want to see Clan of Ash make through the traditional route. Call be stubborn or delusional. I just can’t help it. It just so happens to be a goal of mine.

I try to keep myself from overthinking whether or not I should keep trying to publish Clan of Ash. I know getting publish is tough and famous people had tons of rejection letters. At some point, I just wonder and then I realize that if I stopped, I’ll most definitely regret and that’s a part of what keeps me going.

Even though I wasn’t successful this year, many of my fellow writers on twitter got there tweets liked and I’m super happy for them. I really hope they manuscripts get published. I saw a lot of good pitches yesterday. Luckily, there are more opportunities for #Pitmad coming in June so I’m not discourage.

If anything, I optimistic. I know there’s more opportunities and it’s not like I’m going to quit. Luckily, I am also keeping myself busy with other projects. I’m going to keep working towards my goals until I succeed and even after, I’ll keep going.

Posted in NaNoWriMo, Writing

NANOWRIMO characters 


There’s a few weeks left before National Novel Writing Month starts and I’m already panicking. Kind of. I have the beginning of the story mapped out and I know how my lead will get involved into the developing plot. However, thinking about it, I don’t have a lot of characters. I have two as the lead and maybe five as supporting characters with moderate to little interaction between all of them.

As I think about the middle segment of the story, I have started to come up short. I have a few characters in mind to further develop the story but that’s about it. I don’tlike to create characters and not use them otherwise they’re dead weight. They clutter the story without doing anything. Maybe its the fact that my plot hasn’t been completely developed or maybe is the fact that I’m overthinking all of this and I’m forgetting the most important part (that I have mentioned before): creativity. I guess the fact that I can wing it, scares me. I don’t want to get writer’s block during November.

Looking at things now, I might have to plan out the story as I write. That’s not a bad thing, not really. It’s just that I have spent so much time editing and revising, I feel as if what I know about writing disappeared and I’m not confident anymore. Maybe I just need to get back in the game and practice. We’ll find out in November.