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Doubts and Optimism

#Pitmad came and went without any success. I prepared over ten different pitches for Clan of Ash but they didn’t work. With this, I can’t help but think that maybe I should put Clan of Ash away for awhile and try to get it published later.

I know there’s self-publishing out there but I don’t want to do that for this book. I have another, Crimson Queen, that I would self-publish but not Clan of Ash. Maybe I’m being stubborn but I want to see Clan of Ash make through the traditional route. Call be stubborn or delusional. I just can’t help it. It just so happens to be a goal of mine.

I try to keep myself from overthinking whether or not I should keep trying to publish Clan of Ash. I know getting publish is tough and famous people had tons of rejection letters. At some point, I just wonder and then I realize that if I stopped, I’ll most definitely regret and that’s a part of what keeps me going.

Even though I wasn’t successful this year, many of my fellow writers on twitter got there tweets liked and I’m super happy for them. I really hope they manuscripts get published. I saw a lot of good pitches yesterday. Luckily, there are more opportunities for #Pitmad coming in June so I’m not discourage.

If anything, I optimistic. I know there’s more opportunities and it’s not like I’m going to quit. Luckily, I am also keeping myself busy with other projects. I’m going to keep working towards my goals until I succeed and even after, I’ll keep going.

Posted in NaNoWriMo, Writing

NANOWRIMO characters 


There’s a few weeks left before National Novel Writing Month starts and I’m already panicking. Kind of. I have the beginning of the story mapped out and I know how my lead will get involved into the developing plot. However, thinking about it, I don’t have a lot of characters. I have two as the lead and maybe five as supporting characters with moderate to little interaction between all of them.

As I think about the middle segment of the story, I have started to come up short. I have a few characters in mind to further develop the story but that’s about it. I don’tlike to create characters and not use them otherwise they’re dead weight. They clutter the story without doing anything. Maybe its the fact that my plot hasn’t been completely developed or maybe is the fact that I’m overthinking all of this and I’m forgetting the most important part (that I have mentioned before): creativity. I guess the fact that I can wing it, scares me. I don’t want to get writer’s block during November.

Looking at things now, I might have to plan out the story as I write. That’s not a bad thing, not really. It’s just that I have spent so much time editing and revising, I feel as if what I know about writing disappeared and I’m not confident anymore. Maybe I just need to get back in the game and practice. We’ll find out in November.

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Stand Alone Novel

I have talked about the second book of my half blood series and how I feel like I don’t know how to write. This time, I’m having trouble separating this novel from the first one and the rest of the series. In part, I think it’s because this novel is a continuation. Perhaps I didn’t give myself enough time away from the series. Or perhaps it’s because the characters are so fresh in my mind that it’s making difficult to separate the plots from each other.

My mentality is like a train trying to go uphill. I think I can. I think I can, right? It starts lagging (like all my pc games do). Not the story (I think) just the way that I am able to keep writing and figure out all the tiny details of the plot. I’m not much of a planner and when I do plan, I always allow the story to breathe on its own. I don’t like to limit myself to the confines of an outline. Yet, I feel like the story just keeps going without a breather. Maybe I should have waited for longer to start the second book. But I don’t want to stop now.

To put it simply, I have never done anything like this before. This is the first series that I’m actually writing and it’s scary. I’ve bought reference books and read through them for plotting, description, characters, etc. I can gladly say that the series arc has always been fresh in my head. I know where I am going with this series. It’s how to get there that’s giving me problems.

I wish I could say that I found how to separate the two novels from each other but I haven’t. It’s a learning process; one that I fear and feel excited about. The doubts are still present but I’m pushing through. When I write a scene, I just can’t stop until it’s completed. I tend to rush the scene and end up skipping some description because I want to get to the juicy part. Lazy writing. Sure there’s always editing but I think, just like before, I’m trying to get everything done right.

In general, I think I need to start looking at more articles about writing a series and second books. I know that sometimes the second book isn’t all that great but I really want mine to be decent. Maybe taking a break is all I need. We’ll see.