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Decisions for the Future

Recently, I got an interview for a proofreading job. I was really excited because this is an opportunity to do something with my degree and what they are asking me to do wasn’t that difficult. The interview went great and I was asked to come in this week for a trial so that my potential future boss and myself could see if this was a good job for me. For two days I was able to experience what I would be doing in a year or two if I were to take the job. Proofreading the content and inputting data wasn’t difficult. Sure I was asked to pull some files but I’m used to that in my current job. And yet, when Tuesday ended I was still undecided.

It took my until a few nights ago to actually figure out what I wanted to do. I would be a fool not to take the proofreading job. It would be great experience and I could add that in my resume. It’s not like I’m going to stay at the job forever. At least, I don’t plan on that. Sure it would be a completely different environment from what I’m used to but that’s okay. So, I decided not to take the job.

It’s important to me to feel like I would want to do something every day for the next two years. It’s a lot of pressure. However, at the end of each trial day there was not satisfying about what I did. There was no sense of accomplishment and for some reason that lack in feeling hit me hard. In the end, I wasn’t happy about what I was going to be doing for the next two years of my life. There was no excitement, no feeling to it. Perhaps it sounds like I’m trying to justify my decision but, to me, it is those small things that matter.

Perhaps another opportunity will appear or won’t but I know if I taken that job I would regret it. Ultimately in the long run, though I might feel like I made the biggest mistake of my life, right now, I know that I made the right decision at this very moment. I can only wait and hope that I made the right decision. After all, being successful in life isn’t that easy.



Kassandra Carrillo received her B.A. in Creative Writing from the University of Houston. She enjoys writing dark paranormal fiction. However, she has dabbled in writing fantasy as well, science fiction, western, short stories, poetry, and scriptwriting, but she prefers writing novels. When she's not writing, Kassandra likes to crochet, practice her art, and stream video games.

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